Dishonour block
Friday night was a total blur. I know I went to a party with a mission but who would have guessed I had to complete it at all costs and not with the intended mission objective either. I have always said I’d rather be alone for the rest of my life then to not feel the right emotions for someone. Friday proved that without a doubt. I thought I could just go for it and forget it, just enjoy the moment. About Five minutes in and I just stopped. “No this is not gonna happen” I said to her. I think I remember an incredulous look in her face for about a second. I now feel like total crap. For letting myself go, even though I had a few beers under my belt.
One thing it makes me understand thought is how a person can do that. A while back someone did the same thing to me. It makes me respect them all the more (I still hate them though hehe). So that's the dishonour block. Some may say it prevents you having a good time. I argue it makes sure you do have one.